Journal Thoughts

As I look back on life I realize the things I once held on to so tightly were just “things” and the people I once put upon a pedestal…are just “people”.

We are all the same. We have all been ushered into this world, initially, with a purpose. From the moment we are born, lives change, choices are made that affect our existence as we know it.

Mistakes? I have made many...but I have lived wildly, loved deeply and laughed much. My past haunts, my future beckons and I am thankful to be blessed with a rich and fulfilling life that has led me to this end…not an end filled with sadness and remorse but one filled with forgiveness, renewal and hope for tomorrow.

Every human in this universe is bestowed with mental and physical energy the quantum of which however varies amongst them as per age, gender, race, and region etc.

I have that mental energy which has allowed me to be who I am today.

The Hymn

This is one of the most beautifully pieced words I have lived to experience at my grandmother’s and mother’s funeral. It is one of those songs which have a depth of emotions and sadness but at the same time distinct hope. It brings tears to my eyes every time I hear it.

History says that this is a 19th century Christian hymn by Sarah Flower Adams, based loosely on Genesis 28:11–19 the story of Jacob's dream.

Genesis 28:11–12 can be translated as follows:

“So he came to a certain place and stayed there all night, because the sun had set. And he took one of the stones of that place and put it at his head, and he lay down in that place to sleep. Then he dreamed, and behold, a ladder was set up on the earth, and its top reached to heaven; and there the angels of God were ascending and descending on it”

Nearer, my God, to Thee, nearer to Thee!

E'en though it be a cross that raiseth me;

Still all my song shall be nearer, my God, to Thee,

Nearer, my God, to Thee, nearer to Thee!

Though like the wanderer, the sun gone down,

Darkness be over me, my rest a stone;

Yet in my dreams I'd be nearer, my God, to Thee,

  

There let the way appear steps unto heav'n;

All that Thou sendest me in mercy giv'n;

Angels to beckon me nearer, my God, to Thee,

Then with my waking thoughts bright with Thy praise,

Out of my stony griefs Bethel I'll raise;

So by my woes to be nearer, my God, to Thee,

Or if on joyful wing, cleaving the sky,

Sun, moon, and stars forgot, upwards I fly,

Still all my song shall be, nearer, my God, to Thee,

A sixth verse was later added to the hymn by Ed­ward H. Bick­er­steth, Jr. as follows

There in my Father’s home, safe and at rest,

There in my Savior’s love, perfectly blest;

Age after age to be, nearer my God to Thee. 

Your New Beginning

What is the value of a new beginning?

To choose a path that is completely different from others

What is the purpose of a strong mind?

To withstand all the grave danger that pushes one to a corner?

What is the sense of gravity?

That makes you grounded and stand firm in what you believe in?

What is the reason for wars and bombs?

When the world will end anyway?

But I ask you

What is your sole purpose on this earth in this life?

To make a difference to others

Or

To change the way others think?

He

Came once in a dim autumn night

With the deep crimson of roses

Gently laid them by my feet

And half I smile and half I weep

Closing my thoughts with his

For me he stopped to look around

Then wrote my name onto the ground

I thanked him with a smile

Parting sadly with the last kiss

No grace was felt or any pain

We stood as stones in the fallen rain...